One year ago tonight I was finishing up my 100 days of gratitude – if you recall, it began as the journey of me and my nemesis The Journal.  Interestingly, what started as a project to train me to be a dedicated journal writer – turned into one of the most profound and life changing experiences of my life.  2010 has been a wonderful adventure indeed.

My business grew, my friendships deepened, I learned about sacred space and was reminded about trust.  I said good-bye and learned the difference between past and history.  I cried in public, stopped apologizing for my loud laugh, and learned to stand and receive.  I took on difficult conversations that weren’t so difficult, said yes A LOT and thought no less than 6 times my BIG break had come, shared those moments very publicly….and laughed when – it wasn’t meant to be.

In becoming myself to me I have become myself to everyone.  The girl you get IS the girl you get.  Sometimes she dresses like a Yogi wannaby – other times she looks like someone from Wall Street – and sometimes it’s just jeans and a sassy hat.  The wrapping never made me; the heart made me.  Once I understood my heart I felt I understood the world.

I understood I have a gift for unlikely friendships, and why this surprised me at 40 when I looked back on my youth…I’m not quite sure, yet…perhaps the “once I understood my heart” line is the answer … stay tuned.

I held newborn babies, was blessed to be with family members when they died, attended funerals of dear friends, and started a journey with my parents I never thought I would.

I ran a ½ Marathon and signed up to do it again – I took most Friday’s off during the summer and almost honored every “personal day” on my calendar – BIG stretch for me.

I fell in love with my husband … again – and appreciate now that love does take work and it is well worth it.

I realize, I dream BIG and that can be scary to some people – but it shouldn’t keep me from dreaming.  I fully stepped into the light and am prepared for all the goodness that light will bring.

What’s in store for 2011?  More light, more laughter, more love.  Bigger dreams, bigger sorrows and bigger wins.  Mastery of somethings and release of others.

2010 – many say they are glad to see you go – me? … I am grateful for the lessons and opportunities you shared.  You’ve been a wise friend these last 365, and while I didn’t always understand in the moment, I don’t feel I missed the lessons I was meant to get.  I trust that you have whispered in the ear of ’11 and told her how good it’ll be for all of us under her guidance.  I know so many people on the verge of manifesting something unbelievable and in hindsight you ’10 will receive much of the credit.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and auld lang syne ?

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For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we’ll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

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And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

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Happy New Year everyone – Happy New Year.

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